the upside of change

     Fact about me: I do not really like moving. Moving rooms, houses, cities, countries... just the though of having to pack tons of boxes and then unpack them makes me cringe, throw in the idea of getting used to a new place called home, well I might just cry. Even though I usually do not cry, I cannot help but get sentimental. 
     This weekend, I had to go home to help my family do some packing and some moving around. As eager as I was to help, I could not dismiss the memories flooding into my mind at the sight of furniture leaving, and old things being tossed away. Now do not get me wrong, hoarding is wrong and i actually quite enjoyed tossing kitchen appliances and glass vases into a dumpster and watching them break into a million pieces... extreme home makeover much? But as I drove away, I could not help but think "things will never be the same."
     While part of that statement is true, I realized that I was not looking at the bigger picture. The fact is that so many positives things come out of change.  Change is the how we grow and how we mature. If we always stay in one place, in one town and with the same people, the more we will grow comfortable and resistant. Looking back on my big move Georgia to California, I realized how many countless blessings came out of that very, very painful move. I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I would be a completely different person had it not happened and to be honest, I am not sure I would still want to be that same person. I was pushed beyond my comfort zones, to the point where it transformed, motivated me and because of that move, I am more bold, more firm in what I believe and know what direction I want to take in life.
     While I was at home, I realized even more how much I appreciate my family. My uncles Tim and Daniel, put so much heart in there work that it put tears in my eyes. These men worked beyond limits, beyond pain, wanting only to help us much as they could. Work was not seized till everything was done, and till we felt comfortable and at ease. Although I know they had a million other tasks and responsibilities, we become their number one priority. For hours they worked humbly without complain. They are men worthy of praise, I cannot thank them enough and I want to marry a man who is like one of my uncles.
     This past year has been an experience in its own. I have moved and live a new life in San Diego with friends that are incredible, loving and completely understanding. I have gained and lost things over the past year but looking back there is nothing I want back. Everything that has been lost, has been lost for a purpose. I know I may still shed a tear or too, next time change comes from around the corner, but those tears will only be tears of joy.